Cryptic analysis of the history of things past

Sometimes it is wise to take a look at what's gone before to see if we are repeating what is happening now.

Sometimes it is wise to weight the value of something before you throw it away, before you determine it is worth giving up on.

I've been in this place before...so many times...and the facts remain the same: I'm bouncing between two disciplines and pretty much I hate the latter, the one I'm applying for today although I respect it. The former, where I'm working now, is full of crazies I can't stand and contains a work aspect that I also can't stand. But it also contains something that I absolutely adore.

I can't stand the feeling of not knowing. Of being trapped.
On top of that, I found a master's program that actually looks interesting. Sure...it' a diversion...you'll do anything to get out of studying yes?

Oh, I've got to look at this...if this were your passion, wouldn't you be very interested in studying? Wouldn't it come as a relief to memorize the questions which in retrospect aren't rocket science, just rather dry?

This is a problem this. A problem which is going to define your situation rather clearly...you are a fraud. Or rather you have made fraudulent claims and now you must pay. Perhaps these are the sorry consequences of self deception and a failure to lead; that is to lead yourself to where you should have been years ago.

Remember back to 1989? Hello, that's almost 20 years ago. You hated this way back then. Your interest was a simple ruse...much like today...a means to escape. Haven't you learned that this particular escape plan never worked out well?

God...help me. The dimensions of this lie will overtake me today.